Weird flip, where I don’t want to be happy anymore; just the right to be sad.It’s because I connected with my inner sense of happiness, and my brain yells I LOVE YOU to me all the time, and I don’t feel covetous of happiness anymore; I have it.This is me stretching my legs out and saying: I want no emotions to be off-limits.Rn, sadness feels unsafe to display. I worry you won’t like me as much.and @maybegray are two of my favourite people in the world, because they found their happy, but they didn’t lose their sadness either.Shout-out to @Tjdriii for that one off-hand comment he made to me in NYC, sth like “It sounds like you think negative emotions are a problem, Yatharth” Something about it lodged in my brain and really made me think.I contain multitudes, and I’m afraid if I say I’m sad, people won’t get the other thing. Like how when Rosa said she “God, I love being sad 💙😪,” someone replied “You alright?”Am I just under-confident I am those things? No. It’s that the super-ego I inherited from my upbringing says if one is sad, something must be done about it. And I don’t want to do anything about it. I’m learning to tease apart my super-ego from my own ego.super-ego ~= a part of you that forms as a child to regulate your behaviour and tell you what needs to be done to survive and be accepted ego ~= your own sense of self about how your actions connect to the goals you want [ego ain’t bad, you know]this not a kind way to live 👇, and i don’t want to live that way anymoremore on feeling at rest with happiness

Weird flip, where I don’t want to be happy anymore; just the right to be sad. ... It’s because I connected with my inner sense of happiness, and my brain yells I LOVE YOU to me all the time, and I don’t feel covetous of happiness anymore; I have it. ... This is me stretching my legs out and saying: I want no emotions to be off-limits. ... Rn, sadness feels unsafe to display. I worry you won’t like me as much. ... and @maybegray are two of my favourite people in the world, because they found their happy, but they didn’t lose their sadness either. ... Shout-out to @Tjdriii for that one off-hand comment he made to me in NYC, sth like “It sounds like you think negative emotions are a problem, Yatharth” Something about it lodged in my brain and really made me think. ... I contain multitudes, and I’m afraid if I say I’m sad, people won’t get the other thing. Like how when Rosa said she “God, I love being sad ,” someone replied “You alright?” ... Am I just under-confident I am those things? No. It’s that the super-ego I inherited from my upbringing says if one is sad, something must be done about it. And I don’t want to do anything about it. I’m learning to tease apart my super-ego from my own ego. ... super-ego ~= a part of you that forms as a child to regulate your behaviour and tell you what needs to be done to survive and be accepted ego ~= your own sense of self about how your actions connect to the goals you want [ego ain’t bad, you know] ... this not a kind way to live , and i don’t want to live that way anymore ... more on feeling at rest with happiness